Chapter 19 - Final Push on Foreas
I have done things on Foreas that I would never have done on Earth. I have said this before, but negatively. Today, I mean it differently. I have not been perfect, I have done horrible things, things that I question every waking minute.
Still, I have done good things too. I have helped people, both humans and Foreans. I have disposed of our enemy, the Bane, by the hundreds. They know who we are now. They know that they have a fight on their hands, even if it is one they can still win.
I have seen what the enemy is capable of, and I have changed because of it. Things I never thought about doing before now suddenly don’t seem so bad, or they are at least more gray than before.
On principle I stand against torture. In practice I stand against torture of my allies and encourage it for my enemies. It is a selfish notion, of course, but that doesn’t make it any less how I feel. We didn’t start this war, and probably never would have, so, in my mind, we are justified in doing what is necessary to teach them a lesson.
It is easy to sit on the sidelines and talk about how horrid the things we do each day are, about how we need to look at all sides of the matter, but such thinking is purely foolish. I need only know one side of an argument, my own. And I will always stand by that.
I have not liberated Foreas, I have not beaten the Bane back, but I have caused them harm and that means they will lose time. If they lose it, we gain it, and that is the best we can hope for. Time is what we need. Time to learn, time to harness the teachings of the Eloh. I think it is our only chance of survival, and that is the ultimate goal. This war isn’t about winning, it’s about facing off against extinction and proving we are worthy of continuing our existence.
I don’t have all the answers yet, I don’t know that I ever will, but Foreas has taught me a great deal, and I plan to use those lessons to the fullest on Arieki. I’ll be heading out tomorrow and from there, who knows.
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