Chapter 20 - Why We Fight
Friday, November 30th, 2007
We fight because we have to. It isn’t our desire to engage in wars we can’t win, but that is where we find ourselves now. There is no stopping an enemy who will do what is necessary and ignore what is right. We cannot win.
We are fighting on two fronts. We get up every day and know our enemy is the Bane. We go to sleep every night wondering if our enemy is our brother. We kill them, and they us. And then we kill each other. It isn’t bloodthirst on our parts, we kill because we still question. Our questions destroy us. We cannot win.
Every one of theirs we kill they bring back, a more horrid incarnation than the last. Every one of ours we kill they bring back, mindless and willing. We cannot win.
We wonder if they feel, if they hurt like we do. We wonder, and we worry. We waste our time securing planets they come in solely to destroy. It is easier to ruin than to build. We cannot win.
Our desire for truth, for justice, causes our losses. They turn our men into machines. We feed theirs. They torture and experiment, we cry over their deaths. We cannot win.
We run from fights. Our allies run from fights. They demand loyalty. We cannot win.
We hold out or give to our friends, but always at the expense of another. We worry about who this will hurt. The only pain they care about is ours, more specifically making sure we feel it. We cannot win.
We put our own in harms way to try and gather information on our enemy. They know all they need to about us. They don’t want us alive, and that information sustains them because they are in control of this war. We cannot win.
We chase after languages long dead, in the hopes of our magical save. Among their numbers are those that speak it. We cannot win.
Our technology works if we are lucky. Their technology works without question. It works, and it is always with deadly precision. We cannot win.
We are tested to determine if we are worthy of a power strong enough to hold them back. They run through our numbers and take what they need. We cannot win.
We come to them with a few. They come to us with hundreds. We cannot win.
We do what we can to prove to these alien races that they need to join our fight. They eradicate those who oppose. We cannot win.
We have no hope of surviving for very long. They have numbers. Still, we fight. We fight because we are stubborn. We fight because we can’t just lay down and die. We fight because we must. We cannot win.
But we will go down fighting.
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I have said before that I do not like the fact that the Cormans will not fight with us. That is not to say they aren’t helping us in some way or other, but when I see men and women on the front lines fighting a war that we know will be the end for most of us, and they just sit back and ask for our protection, well, I guess I get a bit annoyed by that.
Krimm. The word doesn’t mean much on it’s own, but if I stick a description in front of the word it is much clearer. River Base Krimm. It’s location is beautifully situated on a river in the Palisades. 


Timora Mines is not a particularly pleasant place. Not because anything especially heinous is going on, at least not that I recall seeing, rather it is because I have a bit of a problem. I have a fear of heights. It is not mind-numbing or anything of that sort, I just prefer to not be very high up. I don’t really think there is anything wrong with that.

It seems like every task they ask me to do that I complete they send me out again in an attempt to get me killed. I realize that probably isn’t the case but still it doesn’t help much when they ask me to do things like today. I mean, things sound simple enough, destroy a few predators at location X, drop a beacon, and wait as they bring in air support.
Back around my early teen years, or perhaps a few years before that, it is hard to say exactly, I read a book, well, a trilogy actually. It started, though, with The White Mountains by John Christopher. If you are unfamiliar with the book basically it boils down to an alien race subjugating humanity and using gigantic three legged machines to scare us…or them, rather.